Anger

W has an ex. They do pretty well getting along and have been trying to re-define their relationship. Every morning she brings the dogs before mentioned in previous post over to be be babysat - dogs coming to be babysat. I know, the dogs are the ones who suffer the most in a divorce.

Anyway, she never sees me or speaks to me, all done so as to be sensitive to her feelings. whatever - Anyway, this week, we just found out she is having this art sale thingy at her house, the same art sale that W used to put on when she lived there, to help promote her art business. This made W very mad (me too). They have been "fighting" this week. I swear, W tries hard to get along with her, and now this??? It has left me feeling really crappy inside. Just the same crappy feeling I used to have when my XH wasing suing me for 3,000 dollars earlier this year, and the same sick crappy feeling that I had when his snake lawyer was using loop holes to take money from my kids when they were with me. Just plain old awful anger. I am not normally an angry person, nor do I like it when people are mad at me, in fact, I hate it. I just like everybody to be happy and get along, is that too much to ask? (yes, it is W tells me)

Anyway, I hate that angry feeling. It is like a toxic poisonous feeling inside me. Last year, when the snake lawyer was doing all that stuff, I had a dream that I shot him. That dream was disturbing to me because I am usually such a soft non-angry person.
Anyway, no dreams yet of killing W's ex. .......yet.